i forgot about easter holidays

hell, yeah. i forgot that this friday is easter holiday. argh. and i'm at home, waiting for someone to drag me to some church somehow. i check citilink online, they only got ticket for tomorrow or saturday. there's still no news from the travel agent about thursday ticket to yogyakarta.

i will have my visa done by tomorrow, wanting to go to jakarta today but didn't manage. slept too late seeing my brother e-comic collection in this computer. i had some load of work in my usb for today. editing before the end of the month. yea yea.

i have to go to yogyakarta by thursday. of course to escape easter and killed by work meetings of the glorious holiday in front of us.

i want some new glasses, this glasses i bought for replacing the one i lost at the accident is not okay. it's annoying at the hanging. i'm waiting for my remittance from seasrep for my ticket to bangkok and the visa too. well they finally reimburse the visa too, so i might can get a new glasses before going to thailand:P

so now, i have to take a shower, a late brunch and edit my works.

in the revelation of saturday night live, i start my manuscript project. for the long and lost years of the urge to write things and fiction. i finally start and finishing 6 pages in one night. and starting another 2 piece of writings in different style and experiment. i'm hoping i'll stand this towards the day i come home from thailand.

in the mean time i had to keep this things all day and night, also finishing all the matters for taking off 40 days from my daily routine and pretend the days in thailand are really for holidays.

kemaren sempet posting panjang soal rumah kontrakan tapi tau-tau ilang. hiks. sebel sehingga membutuhkan mood menulis yang sialan setelah 48 jam lamanya dan tetap menjadi tulisan yang tidak selesai mengenai rumah tersebut.

lagi pusing. akhir-akhir punya banyak bayangan buruk di satu ruangan pojokan rumah mengenai seseorang yang menangis di pojokan yang membuatku urgently to weep too. parah. sebel dan ga bisa tidur sendirian dengan tenang.

hpnya mati, dunia komunikasi seperti mati. dan seperti ga punya kekuatan untuk sekedar menengok ke depan kamar kosnya di salah satu gang untuk melihatnya terbuka atau tertutup.

walaupun kemaren i end my pms gracefully with some negative result:P anyway, got a party tonight at the bunker.

a slow internet line can be fucking annoying in a weird afternoon when you feel that you're not finishing your job lately. or you're busy with something and things seems like not in the end of the pile. like my mobile with your charger and still have not enough time to fill in the energy for it.

we're the restless generation that always seems to look tired and drained. every end of the day. some people say it as a slavery under a modern fascist construction. but i love my work somehow in some love-hate relationship that we often have with things in life. sooo very less sleep lately and the weather are playing around like hell.

it's nearly 6 in the afternoon and my list of jobs for the end of week just adding in number need to be finish.

padahal pengen masak, pacaran dan senang-senang di coffeshop ato angkringan, hhhh...

like water for chocolate

i had a cooking weekend at home. well, finally after we plan to cook at my house for the last 2 weeks, we did it yesterday night. cooking teriyaki chicken and tumis kangkung. simple eh:P it taste good, i'm glad that it turn okay, i haven't cook again for ages. waiting things to turn into a good mood. like what tita in the movie "like water for chocolate", you have to cook it with care and love. hehehe:D

anyway it's been a latin america week. it's like seeing marquez and all it's el boom everywhere somehow, even in my weirdest dream lately.

the internet is slow and it start to pissing me off. while time is running like hell and i'm waiting for hasta like hell too.

i had to finish something that always urging my back lately soon. argh. like there's not enough time to do things at once. at least i know that 1 baht is two hundred something rupiah. hehehhehe:D

please try again!

i don't know what's wrong with my work dateline. things just come up not at the right time, like some annoying push up bra. i had also had to manage things in the campus and things before i'm off to thailand.

we got a gabriel garcia marquez literary discussion few nights ago at aky, it went well i think and probably one of our first celebrated sucess after months of internal discussion vacumn:)

i'm dying to buy a canon a75 in the artha store, hiks, it's only cost 2,1 jt now. i want to get them.

i missed some old friends somehow. especially alia.

i'm starting a fictional draft on my great grandma from my father side. just finish collecting my 50 pages of prose for puthut to edit. i don't know if it's worth publishing now. it's collection range from when i was still 17. damn eh?

some fight to remember, some tears to remember, some pain to remember but above all forgiveness comes and resolve everything.