i'm kinda pissed off with work. dunno, just not feeling good about it lately and a bit emotional when people start complaining and shit. tried to talked with others but it's like nobody there and everyone is busy with their own work. i think we should have a meeting real soon coz there's so much miscoordination with some of the works. arghh!

called K a few days back, might call him tonite if he's still up. still miss him sometimes but feelin a bit better.

met an anarcho punk from german today. his name is ingo, pretty interesting guy. me and my friends just invite him to stay over at our place while he's here to freshen things up a little. if he want to, he can stay with us for the next 6 weeks. 

a bit gloomy mood lately in our surrondings and situations. but the music events is going to be up in the 20th august, people start to meet up and working for it, so it's a good progress.

i want to call K, i think i'll do it now.

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i felt weird for the last three days. maybe because what K said the last nite we spent together in his rented house. i felt shit and a bit emotional now. i'm like rethinking all the shit i'm doing and what i really2 want. talk to koko the other nite in the angkringan lek man until like 6 in the morning. a bit relief with still slight of pain in my chest.

after the moved

lived in the new house for nearly 2 weeks. dodon still in banyuwangi accompanying his sick mother from the 2nd day we moved. so kinda have a lonely sleep lately, but i spend some night at K's place for a good sleep, haha! bebe n jo just went to bali to see some friends for a week. so the house is a rather quiet but i manage to make eat to stay and sometimes paul too or even a load of people. my brother just came the other day, he missed his first flight, which i kinda guess. dunno really what to do and what he want to do exactly in yogya.

and man, how i spenddddd so many money to buy things for the new house and still keep buying. it's no good. i want dodon to come home soon, it's weird to not have him around me. so many works to do this week. i kinda finish the library and start to have some good reading period again.

got my period today, feel shit but happy!