it felt like a long weekend

i must admit this: separation sucks. you. real bad.

secondly, i must admit this too: i hate sleeping alone at night.

eventhough i just don't want to be with my ex anymore. didn't have the feeling anymore. it's just suck. things with the habitual meaning in life tooks part of your memory away.

somehow i come across with a cosmo magazine saying the sign and symptoms of nervous breakdown. i felt like it somehow. with my moodswings being really bad lately eventhough things went allrite lately. like hey, i'm going for thailand for 40 days next april. seeing the course schedule, it's merely more like a bloody holiday of the season.

i felt like spend less time to do other things lately. i don't know, i really actually want to get my schedule right. even buying a new organizer for that.

i don't know what phase i'm entering right now. what feeling i'm being right now. it's like a start with an empty blank page ahead.

my budget lately and also my savings after the bloody accident slowly decreasing. another argh! i wanted to cook today but found failures to do so because it's raining the whole day and i couldn't really go out accept for a very late brunch and being in the office right now.

sometimes i just don't know what's wrong? hey, what's wrong?

and he too, keep asking me...