he evacuates 8 bodies yesterday. and i left everything into debris and again lost all my focus. i'm so worried because he didn't get a medical/psychological test before he's leaving. he's suppose to be in a data/informatian team in the posko in ulee kareng. everyone was so worried last night and i felt so terrible. the night before i had a really bad dream. and last night too, always with him inside it and always about aceh and all that. it's frustating and i have to have a 2 days evaluation meeting starting this afternoon.

he called last night for like four times, and in all of that he sounds very different. he explain everything and i was left crying in spite all the worries i had all day and i'm still scared. i just want him back here, safe. i just want that.